To be the observer
It began in my 54th year… umm 54 years of
living to recognise I have a body and a mind yet I am neither. I simply have
them to use as a sort of vehicle. A bit like an electric bicycle weaving in and
out of life, quite silently.
Is there a moment in time, a beginning, no
rather a continuum, a cyclical continuum. Visualise an enormous three
dimensional game board with all sorts of pathways, you can customise your own
if you like, colours, fluorescent lights, hills, valleys, caves, deep dungeons
or soaring cliffs.
Now plonk yourself anywhere on this
board...which pathway will you choose? If you have a fairly questioning mind
you will be very interested in where all these pathways travel, without
becoming too stuck in any which path. Along the way, with this questioning mind
you will begin to notice things, predictable patterns in all humans and you may
find after a while that what ever happiness you are seeking is becoming rather
illusive.
Yet perhaps in the quieter times in your
life you experience the stillness and silence which remains constant, like an
old friend. You may begin to notice the deepening silence in these timeless
moments. And then you may begin to question yourself, why all this stress and
suffering? For in the present moment the beauty of life can be seen as it is,
there is no stress here.
My work has been helping people see this,
when they came to me I helped them see that their perceived stress and
suffering were not caused by anyone or anything but by the creations in their
own mind.
But nature was calling me, spend some more time
here with us, it felt good. You see everything is energy of some sort and nature
has its own which is simply as it is, humans on the other hand create all sorts
of negative draining energy. So I took a sabbatical and began to spend extended
periods of time at my property, 100 acres of paradise in Northern NSW,
Australia.
Now while one is in nature the questioning
seeking mind never leaves...the ability to detach from the domination of mind
identification begins to open up naturally.
It was around 1am,
I was walking through a park (back in that human world I was worried about a
daughter late home so thought I'd take a walk through the park - illogical
right?) And as I was walking, I was suddenly that same person probably aged
around six years walking through a backyard forest. It was one and the same
moment, well sort of, only separated by forty-eight odd years...
I found this rather interesting, here I was
my mind full of projections on the safety of my daughter, completely immersed
in all sorts of terrible possibilities and amongst all that angst...a window
opened in my mind. I recognised that window was reality and everything else was
a story, a play.
I witnessed in that moment there is one same consciousness
in life and while years may pass and change occurs, the one who is the observer
never changes.
When a window is opened in consciousness it
never closes, light has been let in and that light just keeps getting brighter.
Of course life does not immediately follow a wonderful state of enlightenment,
rather it becomes abundantly clear which path to follow, a little like chalk
and cheese.
It is often in times in life when heaps
of trauma seems to be happening for you, that if flashes of enlightenment
follow they are very strong. I think of it as the universe saying wake up, I’ve
been trying to reach you and you don't listen so I have to keep lifting the
ante to get your attention. And every thing happens for a reason for us to
learn from.
So what has this insight provided? Simply
that the purpose of life, that eternal search for happiness is as simple as
living, truly living in every moment not in your mind, certainly use your
intelligence, meditation (silencing your mind alone will never be enough) but
silencing your mind is the beginning because it will quieten the incessant
repetitive boring and depressing pattern of your mind identifications.
It came to me a few weeks ago to begin writing
again (this of course is a few years after writing a book which I thought at
that point I wouldn't need to write anything again). For those among
you who are more cerebral go to Amazon and look up 'A State of Mind - Happiness
beyond all anxiety'. Don't worry you don't have to be anxious to read it, but
it would probably help.
I’m going to share my writings through this blog
for a while. Keep posted as the universe lifted the ante for me this year.
One of my roles in life is a teacher and I
now have much to share on how to keep your body healthy and free from disease.
Namaste
